Monday, February 4, 2013

Savannah's First Gift!

One of my main purposes of making the Sweet Savannah Knits website was to be able to reach out to others and provide tiny hats for the NICU babies. Well I got my first request last night!  This tiny miracle was born 3 1/2 months early and weighed only 1 pound and 12 ounces. Only a few hours later she dropped down to 1 pound and 4 ounces. Super tiny!  That is almost exactly how small Savannah was when she was born. Savannah was 1 pound and 9 ounces. So I can completely relate and know how it feels to meet your baby for the first time as a micro preemie.  This little sweetie is coming home from the hospital in just a few days weighing almost 15 pounds! Way to go baby girl!!! What a little fighter you are!!!  These tiny babies are most definitely the strongest of us all.  They are born into this world immediately having to fight for their life. Some of them don't make it and some of them do but they are ALL my heroes! They are so tiny and fragile but so strong. 

A friend of a friend requested the little hat and stated that the parents never got a hat for their tiny baby and said it would mean so much to them to have one. I'm hoping to get the name of the hospital. It sounds like they need a hat donation!   Since the baby girl is now 15 pounds and going home soon I decided I would make her two hats exactly the same. Only one will be made to fit the baby when she was 1 pound 4 ounces and another one that will fit her now (look at the difference in size! Wow did she grow!!).  This way her Mommy and Daddy can look back at it in the future and remember how tiny their little girl was at one time.  It can be used as a reminder, well they probably don't need to be reminded but maybe just as a reflection, of how far their baby girl has come. I want them to look back at the tiny hat and feel blessed and know how much of a miracle their baby truly is.  So to the parents of this baby girl, if you are reading this, I want you to know that your baby has been touched by an angel and those hats were made for you with the most love!!
Thanks for the cute teddy bear Lisa!
We are a few days into February now , Savannah's birth month, and I've been thinking a lot. I have been thinking about how February is always going to be a month of reflection and reminders. It will be a month that will remind me to be thankful for what I do have- family, friends, my husband. It will also be a month that reminds me that not all lives are long. Some end way before they are supposed to. This reminds me to enjoy the days I do have and cherish what I have.  This month reminds me that there is so much sadness and heartbreak in life but there is also a lot of happiness and joy. You can't have one without the other.  Grief and sadness can strengthen you but it can also crumble you.  This month I will always reflect on the lessons Savannah has taught me and how she has changed my perspective. I'm sure as the years go on I will react or handle situations differently because of her. I will continue to find other lessons she has taught me that I don't even realize now.  Although I'm able to see the positives, I most definitely am still in pain. I still have moments when I want to scream, "why my baby, why me?"  Why did God think that I was strong enough for this?  Why was my little girl deprived of a long happy life? Unfortunately, I will never know these answers.  This will always be a month that I miss my sweet Savannah so much.
But all I can do is keep moving forward.....


  1. Sending you all the love in the world. You are making such a difference in the world of those parents, Court.